Crap

Aerobics again tonight. It's the same class I went to last week, only there was a new teacher. From what I could gather while eavesdropping on the conversations of the regulars, tonight's teacher is the real teacher and last week's was a substitute. What a relief! I thought I was going to have to struggle to keep my feet moving through the most boring coreography in the world again.

Oh wait. Tonight's routine was the same as last week. Boring! But what can you expect from a male step aerobics teacher? But, it still kicked my ass. Until it's boring and I don't feel like passing out at the end of class, then maybe I'll consider something else. For now I'm going to keep it up. Plus the teacher is pretty cool - despite his inability to coreograph.

There's a step aerobics class at 6:00 a.m. on Wednesday at the gym on 19th St. I think I'll give that one a shot. I much prefer working out in the morning. That means I'll have to go to bed early Tuesday night, though. I tried to go last week and it didn't really work out.

But things are going ok. They say the first week is the hardest, but I disagree (and who are they anyways, and how the heck do they know so much). I think it's easy to keep some willpower going the first week. It's the next couple of weeks that count. It's tougher to keep going than it is to start going again after a long break. That's the ultimate goal.

I'm down 5 pounds in one week - to 183. With any luck I'll be in the 170's soon. I can't wait to fit into some of my tighter pants again! I've made myself a chart where I can keep track of my progress, with rewards each time I meet a mini-goal. My first impulse was to reward myself with a nice dinner out - but therein lies one of my problems. I need to stop using food as the centerpiece of every occasion. I use it to celebrate, or to feel bad. I've got to change that habit.

Fat and Happy

It's been pouring for 3 days. I didn't leave Portland for this! Anyways, it makes me want to sit under a blanket on the couch and read - not exercise. I got out a pilates video to try out, but I just don't feel like it. Maybe later.

I'm down to 182.5 today - depsite the fact that I had pizza and cheesecake on Thursday night. So that's awesome.

I don't know what to do with myself. Mike has the car, so I can't go anywhere. I'm not riding my bike in all this rain. I don't want to do my homework, but I know I should.

We have 4 ripe lemons that need to be picked. Maybe I'll make lemonade!

Day Three

While I am still hungry - actually I'm more unsatisfied than I am hungry - the nutrisystem stuff is working. I lost 5 pounds in two days. I'm sure that pace won't be kept up, and I actually hope it slows down.

I rode my bike to school again today, so that's good. However I failed to wake up in time for the aerobics class I was planning on attending this morning. The alarm went off, and I turned it off. I rolled over to get out of bed, and looked at the clock and it was too late - the class had already started. I suck.

I did stay up pretty late, but I'm losing it - I used to be able to get up early. Now it seems like I can't get up until at least 7. I used to be at work by 7 - after going to the gym.

No matter, I'll do something else later - maybe just some pushups and situps or something.

Back in the Saddle

I was doing pretty well - I was swimming, biking and "running."

Then law school got in the way - there's a little thing called finals that took me off track. Then we went to New York where I ate everything in sight. And believe me, I saw a lot of food. Slowly, I've been trying to be better, but nothing's sticking. I am now almost as fat as I have ever been. So it's time to get serious.

That's why I've started Nutrisystem. Today was my first day, and I'm feeling like this is something that's possible. It will take some work, but nothing good comes without work. Plus, if I fail to plan, then I'm planning to fail.

Besides, I get to drink unlimited diet coke. I know it's not super healthy, but give me a break. One vice at a time. First I'll get the food thing under control. Then I'll work on drinking less caffeine and fake sugar.

I rode my bike to school today - that's about 30 minutes each way. Then when I got home, I went to step aerobics. The aerobics class killed me. The teacher was ok - his strategy was basically to speed up the music so fast that he didn't have to worry about coreography. It is usually a strategy that I hate. But this time I'm so out of shape and it's been so long since I've done step that I didn't mind so much that we were stuck doing basics. I was so dead at the end that I couldn't keep up. He kept speeding up the music and I couldn't take it anymore. Also, I liked how he warmed us up, then went right into a crazy hard ab workout. Then we got into the cardio, and we went hard til the end of the hour.

There's no new before pictures, because I basically look the same still.

Weight this morning was 188. Gross.

Wish me luck.